psychiatry

today I made a brand new experience. I laid on the floor of psychiatric clinique. 

I went there as a volunteer to take a EEG examination to be in a control group for OCD research but as I overslept and didn't have a breakfast I suddenly felt weak and end up on the floor. It was extremely embarassing and they had to call a doctor and the doctor told my, that he was surprised that I was a volunteer, he thought I was a patient. I felt so ashamed. I left the clinique with a waterfall of tears and wanned to cry all day for being so weak, for risking so much for not being able to handle my new life on my own. And than it got better. A friend of mine helped my with nice words a cup of coffee helped me with my blood presure and I started to work on a pretty cool presentation for tomorrow. But sometimes I see my life as a sick joke. I never though I would collapse and if...not on such a wierd place. But life changes....